He has given me

My blogs have been a lot of reflections. But they are not self evaluations. I do not have to equate to a destiny yet for it has just started. redundant. My relationship with Allah has been a roller coaster. I am "god conscious" since I was young, I have been conscious of his existence. But not that he truly existed. There were moments where I believed he was no more then a concept. Mans greatest worst invention. The ruler of judgment, the principal. But I stand firm, to my convictions, that he does exist. I cannot and will not try to make anyone believe so. I am not compulsive. But my life is an example, at least to me, the HE does truly exist. There are millions of people out there that associate to a faith and describe him with mutual descriptions; i can describe him with my feelings. My life is an example of HIS work. The ups and downs are biblical. They are momentous in my eyes. If I am important to everyone, I am that Adam, Moses, Noah, David, Jesus, and Muhammad. HE has spoken to me in a different tongue. HIS hand has guided me in a different era. So I am the believer of his message. Not singled to one defined faith. I am example of a man who strives to meet him with peace. Peace in my heart because that is the only way I can exist. Knowing that HE is happy with me, and that I deserve HIS love. GOD is ALLAH to me. The divine, no association, no personification. Beyond any one's comprehension. Trying to imagine the universe, and then filling it will descriptions of scientific findings would not ever give me a picture of what the universe is. So how can I expect anyone else to tell me who ALLAH is to me. No one can. So what I did and will do is continue to talk with him. I will have my divine conversations. ALLAH speaks through my conscience. My language consist of two words so far, that I take from Surah al Asr. Haq, truth, and Asr, patience. I look for truth in anything. And i practice patience with everything. It humbles me to know that I do not have to suffer. I am above the strains of the mind. The inability to foresee the future. It is what sends others into panic and stress. I believe failure and success are part of ALLAH's language. He uses this to convey his message. Heaven I believe is the ability to think outside of this world. This is why you believe in the life now and the "live hereafter." But Heaven is not a place, I think it is just like the concept of Nirvana. It is the everyone must strive for, but few will attain. Think outside this world, think outside the capabilities of your mind. Being able to think outside of the construct. But how can you do this when your mind is anchored to this earth. All things you think are connected to earth and what you were taught. Like the Taoist, who believe that being taught contaminated the mind. The innocent jovial mind of a child has the capability to expand past what we know. It is still abstract. It does not worry about defining each thought and emotion. Its fears are dismal. There is no boundaries. Imagination can loosely be the key to enlightenment. But at the same time, there is no such thing as pure imagination. How do you find a place in the mind where abstract and logic are erased. Where thought is free, without knowing its free. I believe that is the language of ALLAH. When he removes fear, and trust is not unquestioned. That is when your mind is free to expand and reaches heaven/nirvana/enlightenment. ALLAH is the infinite thought, the unlimited concept of a undefined and non describable plain. Be above all.

Life Circle

Life is rhythm. It is not always the same song. It isn't always the happiest song. I like to think of my life song like a great classic masterpiece. It is dynamic and travels the spectrum of sound. My mind resonates thoughts at different measures, flips, stops, accelerates, it is never predictable, but I know how to play it. My life music right now is beautiful, and has been for a while. This Ramadan, marked an important journey in my life. I embarked on a transition phase that I consciously knew of, but did not control. I allowed Allah to guide me with his hand as I shaped into a new person. There are studies that pose, every 5 years your body has went through a regrowth. Your cells are all new, this is an estimated time of the process of regrowth. I am not a doctor but this fact if factual are fascinating. I believe the mind divides your life into increments of 5 years as well. At least i am satisfied with that. So at the age of 25, I am brand new again, rejuvenated. The last 5 years for me, with reflection I can say were wonderful. It was where I was at, the first time I really faced responsibility and repercussions. I also learned about my adult self, and found myself. I lost my innocence, pushed limits I never thought I would, and did exactly the opposite of what my childhood dreams were. But these are not disappointments at all, it is humbling. I am jovial. More then when I was a kid who was combated with emotions that I couldn't define. Learning the whims of the world and translating it into disappointment. I am wiser and smarter. I am a foolish person now. I am cause I am happy, I found the secret. It is relative to how you look at your life, is your body and soul a tattered and scarred figure? Mine is impervious to destruction. More, I cannot do any harm to myself. My mind, my beliefs, my future will not allow it. I would like to attribute this strength to Allah. But I have to dissect it so I can give praise to what I am grateful for. My family, Mother and Father, they have given me a relationship that is golden. To have a relationship with these two people, who are gentle at heart, intellectual and calm in the mind, and beam in the soul. They are my guidance. My brother and sister who I believe had grown with me on my journey are my favorite constituents. They are my conscience, they are the ears and voice that help me unselfishly. The only people who truly help you in life are the ones who do not have a malicious agenda. Surround yourself with those who want what is best for you. Who will say "I want this for you" and you can believe it. There is someone who has come into my life at this momentous moment, and I know Allah has set this moment in both our futures. She is stimulating to my soul. Given me a charge in life that has shocked me into bliss. Down to earth yet from mars. She more then fits my life, she makes my life something new. I am greatful for my family, for she, and for obama.