He has given me

My blogs have been a lot of reflections. But they are not self evaluations. I do not have to equate to a destiny yet for it has just started. redundant. My relationship with Allah has been a roller coaster. I am "god conscious" since I was young, I have been conscious of his existence. But not that he truly existed. There were moments where I believed he was no more then a concept. Mans greatest worst invention. The ruler of judgment, the principal. But I stand firm, to my convictions, that he does exist. I cannot and will not try to make anyone believe so. I am not compulsive. But my life is an example, at least to me, the HE does truly exist. There are millions of people out there that associate to a faith and describe him with mutual descriptions; i can describe him with my feelings. My life is an example of HIS work. The ups and downs are biblical. They are momentous in my eyes. If I am important to everyone, I am that Adam, Moses, Noah, David, Jesus, and Muhammad. HE has spoken to me in a different tongue. HIS hand has guided me in a different era. So I am the believer of his message. Not singled to one defined faith. I am example of a man who strives to meet him with peace. Peace in my heart because that is the only way I can exist. Knowing that HE is happy with me, and that I deserve HIS love. GOD is ALLAH to me. The divine, no association, no personification. Beyond any one's comprehension. Trying to imagine the universe, and then filling it will descriptions of scientific findings would not ever give me a picture of what the universe is. So how can I expect anyone else to tell me who ALLAH is to me. No one can. So what I did and will do is continue to talk with him. I will have my divine conversations. ALLAH speaks through my conscience. My language consist of two words so far, that I take from Surah al Asr. Haq, truth, and Asr, patience. I look for truth in anything. And i practice patience with everything. It humbles me to know that I do not have to suffer. I am above the strains of the mind. The inability to foresee the future. It is what sends others into panic and stress. I believe failure and success are part of ALLAH's language. He uses this to convey his message. Heaven I believe is the ability to think outside of this world. This is why you believe in the life now and the "live hereafter." But Heaven is not a place, I think it is just like the concept of Nirvana. It is the everyone must strive for, but few will attain. Think outside this world, think outside the capabilities of your mind. Being able to think outside of the construct. But how can you do this when your mind is anchored to this earth. All things you think are connected to earth and what you were taught. Like the Taoist, who believe that being taught contaminated the mind. The innocent jovial mind of a child has the capability to expand past what we know. It is still abstract. It does not worry about defining each thought and emotion. Its fears are dismal. There is no boundaries. Imagination can loosely be the key to enlightenment. But at the same time, there is no such thing as pure imagination. How do you find a place in the mind where abstract and logic are erased. Where thought is free, without knowing its free. I believe that is the language of ALLAH. When he removes fear, and trust is not unquestioned. That is when your mind is free to expand and reaches heaven/nirvana/enlightenment. ALLAH is the infinite thought, the unlimited concept of a undefined and non describable plain. Be above all.